On the Other Side

           

  As I woke up this morning, a thought came to my mind. "Work, that is always left undone". It's not that I grumbled of having work, because some people need one too, It's just that I'm sick and tired of what I have now, frankly speaking I am NOT happy anymore! For the past seven (7) months that I've been working here in this company, smiles are only countable but others are duh! never mind though! Actually, there's nothing wrong with the kind of colleagues that I do have. I am always annoyed about the kind of work that I do have, what kind of designation I am into. I don't love it anymore, you know, the work stuff! aside from knowing that it's not my passion, it's not the kind of work that I would love to do. It is always my daily routine to say or utter the word "I'm TIRED!". Because I really am! I am tired of everything in here. The company, the kind of management that I am into. The kind of job that I am working! Searching for good and suitable resumes all day, weeks and months are so disgusting! Realizing that at the end of the day you accomplish nothing!

  Seems like I am not, you know, growing up as an individual, a person. I don't feel any achievements here. While on the other side, if they do feel that I am worthless here, that I am no use at all, why keeps me here for long? If they can sense that I am not an asset anymore in their company, then terminate me! If they are tired of hearing my grumbles, then me too! I am tired so much! I don't feel also making ways just to be or get close enough to them (you know some other management staffs) and I don't give such a damn! If I'll do it, it's not me anymore! I will not ever  forget this line that was given to me by one of our head. "If you're doing the same thing, wala kang ma-achieve!" -Yeah right! If I will be still be doing the same thing, searching resumes all day long, that stuff, I won't achieve anything in here for me, for my own benefit. I wont achieve good things that I can be proud of! and I'm sure about it! If you don't like me because of the kind of performance that I am showing about my work, well same to you! It's a win-win situation duh! o_O If you always ask us on how we assess ourselves, do you have some time to assess yourself too? Do you still take a single second to ask yourself how good you are? or are an effective _____?

            

  I still don't know what matters to this one, but for me, it is. This is what I feel as days passes by that I am still here in this company., They treat their employees as an employees and that's all PERIOD! It feels like you're in hell while you're in here. Demons are everywhere! :p

  Life may lead me to different places, another journey, but one thing is for sure, I will not take this path again in my whole entire life, un-happy my heart is not at its peace. I know God is in me, he will take me to where I do really belong, and it's not in here =)